Dear Kitty,

I am not going to lie to you, now that I have come back, I have felt more than ever how hard it is.

I know now how it feels to hug you and kiss you and wake up by your side. And on the days I see you being sad, or wishing I was right there with you, just quietly sitting in front of a Lake in Dali. The question ‘’What if distance gets too hard?‘’ does come to my head. It was a question also before we even started dating. And it is a question now.

We worry about missing the little moments. About our families. Our jobs. Where we will live. Worry about everything.

And we worry because we care. Deeply.

And the question doesn’t come because I have doubts. It comes because it is an important question to answer. I have been looking for the words to answer it.

The other day, reading Atomic Habits I found this quote that says.

“He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how”

Which basically means that people who have a strong enough reason to want something will always find a way to get it.

And if the distance gets hard, that’s fine by me. Because I want to stand right there by your side.

But why?

Because love isn’t about how close you are. It’s about how deeply we choose each other, no matter the distance.

It’s making time to call each other and laugh together when you tell me about how you almost fell into the lake. It’s you showing me all the pictures from your wonderful trip. It’s us being able to talk about our families, our personal struggles, the things we love and are passionate about.

Who is more connected than us? Who is missing any little thing from each others life? Not us!

Every call, every voice note, every video, every movie, every day we learn something together. It reminds me: we chose this. And what is love if it isn’t choice?

In that sense, Kitty, no one is closer to me than you.

I miss you, Kitty. I miss you dearly. And it’s true, 一 日 千 秋. Days go by fast and the first time I met you feels like it went both too fast and like they were long days of endless fun.

I keep my faith. I know my why, and I am able to handle any how. Because I know I love you and I want to be with you. And while it does make me sad sometimes, it also fills me with joy and the motivation to work very hard. To save money and study. To try and show you how much I care about you. To try and be the best boyfriend I can be to you, because you have been the best girlfriend I could ever ask for.

And I like to remind myself that while the present requires us to be strong and persistent, the future awaits for us. A future where every single day I wake up by your side.

And in that normal day to day existence. In those perfect days where nothing spectacular happens, I will wake up happily. Just grateful to be next to my best friend, to the woman I love.

We have all of our lives ahead of us, Kitty. But even just now, I have never been happier. I have never felt the way I feel about you now.

I hope you have a wonderful birthday. Can’t wait to show you this silly little website I made for you. A place for two crazy cats, you and me, in a little corner of the internet.

I love you, Kitty.

Always yours, your black cat.